Dottie - I'm so sorry you're going through so much right now, but please, don't beat yourself up about everything. I totally get where you're coming from - between really tight finances, shaky employment future and cravings that aren't supposed to be there (after all, isn't that why we had this surgery????), life just seems to be constantly on the cusp of utter disaster. But, take a deep breath, relax, because there's nothing you can do about what has been done. Look forward, make plans (that's how we got through the nightmare waiting period before surgery, right?) and make sure you carry out each of those plans. For example, 1) Protein first - no snacking (for a week perhaps - set a time limit, you'll find that helps), 2) Sit hubby down and have a deep, knock-em-out, get-to-the-grit discussion and work at that until things are where you want them (or where you figure you can deal with them), 3) Plan to find a better job, for a bigger and brighter company! One that has a great pay and benefit package. Remember, we're here for you to vent to - I just hope you can use any of the advice you're going to be getting. Best wishes and great big hugs, from your AMOS sister, Deana.