Karen, You poor thing! I remember those early days well, and trust me, it will get better. It's very common to have some degree of depression after major surgery, and with a 12 inch incision, I'd say your surgery was major! Try to keep your thoughts positive, and try very hard to keep moving, small walks a few times a day do wonders for your mental health, as well as helping healing. Just try to be sipping water or Crystal Light all the time, to keep from getting dehydrated. You should really try to get in at least 50 grams of protein a day too. Soon this will all seem like a world away, believe it or not. You will have more energy and feel so much better, just hang in there. {{{HUGS}}}}